Bye Michigan

I am back in WI and on day 2 of waiting by my phone, or as I my aunt would put it...my phone waiting by me!. They say it will get easier. I still have a few things to do before they call...like pack my bag, Lailas bag, Jer Jons bag, and clean my house. So needless to say I am ok with waiting a few more days (or weeks, or months...lets not hope years!)

It was very hard to leave MI and still hard to think about how it will probably be awhile before I am back to that side of the state. I did take a longer glance at the house driving away, and a few more looks in the backyard and a moment longer in my old room for the just in cases. Yeap, I have the just in cases going on pretty hard core. 

Sadly, I still think my brain stops me from fully grasping everything because when it came to saying goodbye to people, I just couldn't. It was all normal goodbyes like I was going to see them all tomorrow. It was more of a reality when I had to say bye to my parents because we all knew it would be for awhile. Big hugs and many tears from me. I felt better when my Dad confirmed, "You will be back here." Amazing how he knows me so well. But this makes me think, how can I say bye to Jer and Laila?! Yeap, again, the Lord will get me through this.

Now to enjoy my collar the way it is before they put in a port on Monday. The one part of my body that isn't deformed in some way will now have something wrong with it. But I am trying to look at it as another battle scar. And I am hoping that once my transplant in here, over, and I am healed and on a good road, that I will be able to get rid of that as well as my tube. So many battle scars, but whats a scar in order to breathe an live?!